Monday, December 31, 2012

Another post for 2012

A. Age: 35
B. Bed size: Queen - I would love a King but wont fit in our room
C. Chore you hate: Folding the laundry..
D. Dogs: 1 Gracie Shih Tzu 
E. Essential start to your day: Diet Pepsi
F. Favorite color: Purple 
G. Gold or Silver: Gold
H. Height: 5'5 
I. Instruments you play: NONE.
J. Job Title: Public Safety Communicator - 911 Dispatcher
K. Kids:  None =(
L. Live: Fairfax Va 
M. Married: May 24, 2003
N. Nicknames: Leezer, Lis, Lise, Trap
O. Overnight hospital stays: None
P. Pet peeve: Ignorant People
Q. Quote"Sometimes I'm good but when I'm bad I'm even better"  
R. Righty or LeftyLefty
S. Siblings: None
T. Time you wake up:  EARLY. 5:20 for work and whenever on days off. 
U. University attended: George Mason University
V. Vegetables you dislike: Lima Beans, Carrots, and cauliflower
W. What makes you run late: Not wanting to get out of bed.
X. X-rays you've had: Broken arm and knee
Y. Yummy food: Gummy Bears, Chocolate, Ice Cream
Z. Zoo animal favorite: Panda's 

Goodbye 2012..... is the last day of 2012... and what do I have to show for it??? NOTHING. I attempted many times to lose weight only to fall off the wagon more times than I can count. Oh well, everyday is a new day and I can only take it one day at a time. SO good bye 2012 and Here is to a wonderful 2013...

Here are some pics taken over this past year...

In August Steve's Friend Dustin got married in PA

We went to Disney for our Anniversary in May

I promise I will post more this year.... I know I say that every year. But This time I mean it.. lol 

Goodbye for now....

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Mama Laughlin: Mama Laughlin's Holiday Pay It Forward

Wanted to share this in case any of my readers might know of anyone who can use some help this Holiday Season. I love this blog and she is a real inspiration to MANY women and maybe even some men. Please check out her blog... Have a great day all!!

Mama Laughlin: Mama Laughlin's Holiday Pay It Forward:

Saturday, November 24, 2012


OK I know it has been like FOREVER since I last blogged... Well I have not been good at all... And I am extremely pissed off at myself. I do good for a bit then just fall off the wagon.... I have almost gained all the weight I had lost since I started over in Aug. Granted it is only like 5 lbs but still... I just can't not get over whatever is holding me back... And I am at a loss....

Everyone around me is doing amazing and I am here pissed and feeling sorry for myself.

I am pissed that...
I have no clothes that fit other than sweatshirts. 
All of my sweaters that "should fit" have shrunk 
My jeans a starting to dig into my stomach 
I hate being the FAT girl 
When I look down I have double chins

I am sooo over being this way and I really have no idea where to start..... Well I do but so far it has gotten me nowhere... 

That is all for now... 


Thursday, November 1, 2012

What does your blog name mean???

Ok So everyone is doing a post about "What does your blog name mean?" So...... Here is mine.... 

I thought about what to name my blog for the longest time. And came up with "Butterflies and Hurricanes". It is the title of a song by my favorite band Muse.  I thought it was a awesome title and even attempted to make the titles of my posts also song titles... Kinda didn't work... Some are and some are not. Oh Well...... 

Also it really describes my journey and where I am going... So... I leave you with the lyrics.... 

Change everything you are 
And everything you were
Your number has been called

Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead

Best, you've got to be the best 
You've got to change the world 
And use this chance to be heard 
Your time is now

Change everything you are 
And everything you were
Your number has been called

Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead

Best, you've got to be the best
You've got to change the world 
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now

Don't let your self down
And don't let yourself go
Your last chance has arrived

Best, you've got to be the best
You've got to change the world
And use this chance to be heard
Your time is now

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Butterflies and Hurricane Sandy...

Here is is 0926 on Tuesday.....And I have yet to go home from working yesterday starting at 0630....Due to the lovely Sandy.

I am essential personnel here in Fairfax. I am a 911 Dispatcher so I have to report no matter what.  SO needless to say I really miss my husband and my dog... Well mostly just the dog... J/K (not really)

Yesterday was not all that bad at work because people actually listened to everyone and did not leave their house unless needed. Until the wind picked up around 530ish...When all the trees decided to fall on top houses. Luckily no one was injured.  With all the power outages, trees down and water it go extremely busy up until we were relieved at 1900. (7pm) But since the county was closed we got double time!!

I decided to keep myself safe and stay at a hotel overnight instead of heading home since I had to be back here at 0630. I probably could have made it home but I did not want to take that chance. We stayed at the Hyatt Fair Lakes. Ir is pretty nice. And I got my own room with a KING SIZE BED!! I was kinda excited to have a entire bed to myself. No hubby or dog trying to take my side or even my place.  But then again I didn't have my husband or dog... 

With all the rain and wind it was hard at first to fall asleep. It was mad windy on the 12th floor.. Others who stayed in the hotel said the hotel moved.  I guess I was so tried I didn't even feel it.  The up at 0500 to go back to work and do it all over again. Hopefully now that the storm is getting weaker we will not be as busy. Just dealing with the aftermath of it all.....

Until next time....

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Look what I got!!!

So thanks to Nikki Dee over at Aussie in the USA and Michelle over at Besaw for who you are I have been nominated for a Liebster Blog Award

Here are the Rules:
- Each person tagged must post 11 things about themselves.
- They must also answer the 11 questions the tagger has set for them.
- They must create 11 more questions to ask bloggers they have decided to tag.
- They must then choose 11 bloggers to tag with less than 200 followers.
- These lucky bloggers must be told.
- There are NO TAG BACKS.
11 things about myself:
1. I am a 911 dispatcher in Northern VA
2. My Husband and I have the same birthday. 
3. My Dad is my hero.
4. I am obsessed with reality tv. Don't judge.. lol 
5. I am a true crime junkie! Books, ID, TruTV, A&E you name it! 
6. I am a trivia Queen! 
7. I love to dance. 
8. I would do anything and everything to help a friend. 
9. I LOVE Purple! Anything and Everything....
10. I am extremely shy. 
11. I am a founding member of my sorority at the college I went to. 
 Questions/Answers to Nikki Dee:
1. What is the farthest you have traveled from home? ~ Hawaii 
2. If you could be 1 celebrity for a day who and why? ~ Victoria Beckham I mean she is married to the hottest man alive! lol

3. What is your favorite way to eat potatoes? eg: baked, mashed etc ~ Mashed

4. What is your favorite movie quote? ~ "
So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday". From the Notebook
5. What song makes you cry? ~ Always on my mind Willie Nelso

6. Do you have any pets? Tell us about them.  ~ Gracie a Shih Tzu whom I adore!!

7. If you could travel somewhere right now where would it be? ~ Anywhere with a beach

8. Last thing you drank. ~Water
9. Last time you danced on an actual dance floor. ~ August 25th

10. If you could play a musical instrument, what would it be? ~ Drums 
11. Describe yourself with a colour. ~ Purple

Questions/Answers for Michelle:
1. Who means the most to you? ~ My husband
2. What is your number 1 goal right now? ~ Lose Weight so I can have a healthy pregnancy 
3. What is your occupation? ~ 911 Dispatcher 
4. Hobbies? ~ Reading, Scrapbooking and being with my family
5. Pets? ~ Yes I have a Shih Tzu named Gracie
6. What is a current struggle? ~ Not to be so negative
7. What do you love about yourself? ~ My heart. I care Way to much for things
8. What is something you want to work on about yourself? ~ I want to be happier in life
9. Who is someone you miss? why? ~ My Sorority Sister Nic. She lives in NJ and I am in VA
10. What is something you cant live without? ~ My Iphone
11. What are your talents? ~ I am AWESOME at random trivia and an awesome dancer.. lol 

Questions for my Nominees
1. If you could do high school over again, what would you do differently? 
2. What is your favorite movie? 
3. If you could live in any state, which one would you choose? 
4. Who is your favorite band or artist? 
5. What is your favorite holiday and why? 
6. If you could marry anyone who would it be? 
7. If you were on a deserted island what 3 things would you want with you?
8. What one store would you max out your credit card? 
9. Do you have a favorite sports team? 
10. What is your favorite animal? 
11. What is your favorite dessert? 

My Nominees (Everyone else has already done it.. lol) So only 4  

Monday, October 1, 2012

Busy Weekend

WOW we had a busy weekend...

Started off with a get together with some of Steve's hockey teammates for poker and just a fun evening hanging out, Once we got to their beautiful house. I go into the kitchen only to find out I went to HS with his wife. What a small world... We had a great time hanging out and enjoying the company.

Then on Saturday, Steve and I headed to Old Town so I would know how to get to the brunch I was going to the next day. We decided to take our dog as well just to let her enjoy a ride in the car. But she is good in the car but is always trying to get to the window so she can stick her head out. But that involves her going back and forth between my lap and the window. Once we got to the restaurant and I knew where I was going we headed back. We took the scenic route back through the GW Parkway along the Potomac River. It was a BEAUTIFUL day and we stopped to let the devil dog run around a bit. We were hoping she would tire out and leave us alone once we got home (She has been extremely needy and has to be ONTOP of me at all times. She also has decided to revert back to being a puppy and gets into and tears things apart once we leave her alone in the house) However this worked for only so much... She slept once we got home but once Steve was getting ready to go to his hockey game she was wide awake..

Then I went with my dad to celebrate a friends Birthday at Champs. Steve met us up there after his hockey game. The daughter of one of our friends has a crush on Steve. So he decided to embarrass her by sitting next to her. She is 11 and she turned BRIGHT red. After a while she calmed down and was not even bothered by him sitting there.  It was a riot. In years past whenever we meet up she would follow him around like a puppy. It is so cute. We then went to their house for cake. They have an adorable shih tzu and poodle mix named Reece. I almost stole him. We played with him for a bit and then we went home.

Then Yesterday I headed down to Old Town Alexandria to meet up with some Alumnae of my sorority for brunch at Chadwick's. It was a wonderful time to meet up with new and old sisters. However on a funny note, there were supposed to be about 10 of us and when I arrived there were already several people there. But we soon figured out we were two different parties that they sat together.  Both of the parties were under Rebecca and they only had one reservation. Luckily it was easy to split the tables and everything worked out. It was a wonderful brunch and I enjoyed meeting new sisters from other universities.

Overall I enjoyed my weekend. Usually we just sit home and do nothing. I like that we got out and did things... <3>

Until Next Time.......

Sunday, September 30, 2012

What I know...

I borrowed this from Hailey at

This is what I know...

~ I know how it feels to cry uncontrollably because you are that unhappy with your body.
~ I know what it's like to feel defeated in the dressing room.
~ I know how it feels to sit down and pull at your shirt to try and hide your rolls.
~ I know what it's like to pour yourself into your jeans.
~ I know how it feels when the buttons from those jeans cut into your skin and leave painful marks.
~ I know what it's like to stand in your closet full of clothes that are all too small wondering what you're going to wear that day.
~ I know all about not owning a scale to "avoid the truth."
~ I know what it's like to change over and over every day before you finally find something that doesn't make you look THAT fat.
~ I know how it feels to crave junk ALL THE TIME.
~ I know how it feels to see cute fashion trends, only to realize they don't make them in your size.
~ I know how it is to think "oh SOMEDAY I'll get back into my skinny jeans."
~ I know how it feels when your thighs rub together when you walk.
~ I know how it feels to FEEL your fat jiggling with every move you make.
~ I know all about "Starting my diet on Monday."
~ I know how shameful it feels when that diet fails.
~ I know the only thing that cures that shame is more junk food.
~ I know all about that vicious cycle.
~ I know how it is to feel like a prisoner in your own body.

~ I know.
~ So don't tell me it's hard.
~ I know.

Monday, September 24, 2012

I'm still here...

Sorry to all my followers... I have not been to exciting lately.. Things have been crazy at work and have not had time to really sit down and write... I promise I will... Since I have already lost a follower... =(

Thursday, September 6, 2012

If you really knew me.....

Since everyone else in the Blog world is doing this post.. I thought I'd do it too....

If you really knew me.......
You'd know I have no filter I speak what is on my mind and often it gets me in trouble. 
You'd know that I have a hard time expressing myself with people I love. 
You'd know that I am actually shy... Really it is true. 
You'd know that I would drop anything and everything to help a friend. 
You'd know that I LOVE to dance. 
You'd know that I love my dog sometimes more than my hubby. 
You'd know that I cuss WAY to much.
You'd know that I hate talking on the phone. 
You'd know I constantly compare myself to others. 
You'd know I am obsessed with Pinterest. 
You'd know I leave my husband for Chad Durbin. (Pitcher for the Atl Braves) 
You'd know I shop too much and buy stuff I don't need. 
You'd know I am afraid of throwing up.  Seriously makes me have a panic attack. Even other people... 
You'd know that I cry easily. 
You'd know I take things WAY to seriously and dwell over things to the point I get anxious. 
You'd know that I am often jealous of others . 
You'd know that I love my sorority sisters. 
You'd know that I love sports for the hot guys. (Not entirely true but it helps.)
You'd know I want a child. But am afraid due to the throwing up part.. 

That is all I can think of right now..... 

Have a good day all!!! 

Wednesday, September 5, 2012


Sorry all my blog followers I have not posted in a LONG time.. I PROMISE I will get back to it!!!!

~ Lisa 

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Still Trucking....

Sorry I have not posted in a while.. Been a bit busy.

Anyway still here doing WW. Still have not really started to exercise. I have tons of videos and even have exercise games for my WII. Are they even opened??? NOPE. But they are there. I have a gym membership...Have I gone??? NOPE. I really need to get off my butt and do something.... But I am sooooo lazy..... Oh well... Tomorow is a new day.. lol

That's is for now.... Gotta get back to work.

Have a good day everyone!!!!!!!!!!


Sunday, August 5, 2012

Day 6...

Day 6.....

I have done very well this past week with a few minor slip ups... I have not done any exercising yet... I have not found the willpower to get off my ass yet.. Maybe I am just lazy... I really wish I wasn't. But here is to a new leaf. =)

More to come....

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

A New Me.....

Well today is Day 2 of me trying to be a healthier me. So far so good... I am back on WW and only used one of my "Extra Points" yesterday. I want to try and not use ANY of them but if it happens it happens... I know this is like the "billionth" time I have done WW and hopefully the LAST time.....

Here are some of my goals for today....

1 ~ Drink AT least 64 oz of water ( I am hoping for more but I am not much of a water drinker so starting off slow)

2~ Log any and ALL food I put in my mouth.

3~ Set Real Goals for my self that I know I can obtain and strive for.

4 ~ Think of some rewards for myself for obtaining each goal. (Not food related)

Anyway that is it for now.....


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Falling Down

As I sit here and think about writing a post I have so many things going through my head. As I mentioned in my earlier post I have been feeling really down lately and still have no clue what to do. I get overwhelmed easily, get upset and or mad even more easily and wish I knew how to get control over my life.

I often wonder how does one even begin to be happy. I am not saying I'm not happy at times but am more often really unhappy and I have no idea why. I WANT to be happy, I really do. I don't even know what happened. I don't want to be the bitchy/negative one. I really don't know how keep my thoughts or comments to myself. I guess it is easier to put someone else down than actually look at myself. I hate that I am always saying the wrong thing and getting people mad at me or whatever. I really don't know how to just be happy, cheerful and just be liked for me..

After looking at notes and cards I gave Steve early in our relationship and wonder what happened to that girl. Have I really changed in 14 years?? Or is that what happens when you become comfortable in a marriage? I sometimes wish I could go back to the early days. There are so many things I would love to fix.

And I am truly disgusted with myself for not sticking with WW and gaining all but 8 or so lbs back. I can only imagine how much I would have lost if I had kept it up.... Literally just thinking about it makes me want to burst out in tears. Which at this point is not that hard...

I just don't know.. I don't want anyone to think I am anything but wanting to better myself. =)

That is all for now...

Friday, April 6, 2012


As I sit here at work I wonder where to start.....

I have been feeling really low lately and not too sure why. Well it could be MANY reasons.... Some I really do not want to get into right now because it will just make me end up crying and since I am at work I do not want to do that...

Not really sure what to do with certain aspects of my life...
I have blogged many times about certain issues and still am having the same problems and none have really gone away. I am at a loss for what to do and I really have no one to talk to about these issues... Not that I even know how to express what I am feeling anyway -- I guess I am just good at keeping it all inside and pushing it away until I am miserable...

Maybe I need to go to a counselor but I don’t even know where to start... I am so over feeling this way and have no idea where or how to start.... Not sure if my meds are not working or do I need a different one??? I have no idea....

I am just rambling at this point and really have no sense of what I am even typing... maybe once I have time to think and get my thoughts in order I will do another post.

If anyone is even reading this I am sorry I am all over the place but I needed to get some of my thoughts down in writing.... and if you continue to follow me I promise I will make more sense next time.